There is no more loaded and misused word in the English language than love. This post, as much as I wish it could be about romantic love, is about the everyday love that gets people up in the morning. The thing is that I would not be here or in the position I am now if it were not for the love of several people in my family – namely my parents and every single one of my grandparents. I realize that many people can say that, but not all. Also, I have the unique perspective of being able to directly tie my future to the love and support of my parents and grandparents. If it weren’t for my family, I would not have been able to go back to school to pursue my teaching degree. If I am able to fully realize my dream of being a high school teacher, business owner, and mom, it certainly won’t be due to my efforts alone. Only the love of several people could help me accomplish those goals.
When I first began thinking about this post, I couldn’t help but think of my Grandma B., my maternal grandmother. She passed away in 2014 just as I was beginning my second college career. She most definitely approved of my plan. When I finally have my first classroom, I know that she’ll be watching over me from wherever she may be. Education meant that much to her. My other grandmother, Grandma R., values education every bit as much, but never had the opportunity to obtain a college education. Even at 91, she reminds me at least once a week that she loved school, and she tells me old school stories that I’ve heard too many times to count. I love it because I will never forget them. In some ways, I feel as though I am getting an additional opportunity at a college education that she never had. If I eventually do adopt, my child(ren) will know all about them and the profound influence they had on our entire family.
What frustrates me at the moment is that I so badly want to give back what has been given to me. I want to help someone achieve their dreams. I am just not there – yet. I am not in that position – yet. I have so much love to give and, as of yet, no family of my own. I am simply way too impatient.