Just when I feel hopeful about the future, reality seems to rear its ugly head. Lately I’ve been reminded time and time again that I need to take care of myself first. That is all well and good, but I need people in my life. I know I can get wrapped up in my own life to the exclusion of all else (with the exception of my family), which is why I worry that I’ll end up alone in the end.
How do I let go of that almost paralyzing fear that I’ll be alone for the rest of my life and yet concentrate on myself? Maybe that is exactly what I need to do at the moment. I am tired of living in a society focused on narrow measures of beauty and success. None of them apply to me. They never have and they never will. Where does that leave me? I don’t exactly know.
I know that I need to create my own path. Unfortunately, that is precisely what intimidates some people, even though that is the only option I’ve ever been given. Then again, why should I care? The people who understand are the only people who matter.