The High Cost of (Not) Being Yourself – Part 1

David Bowie

What Becomes of the Broken Hearted? – BlogHer

You Need to Take Care of Yourself First – BlogHer

Just when I feel hopeful about the future, reality seems to rear its ugly head.  Lately I’ve been reminded time and time again that I need to take care of myself first.  That is all well and good, but I need people in my life.  I know I can get wrapped up in my own life to the exclusion of all else (with the exception of my family), which is why I worry that I’ll end up alone in the end.

How do I let go of that almost paralyzing fear that I’ll be alone for the rest of my life and yet concentrate on myself?  Maybe that is exactly what I need to do at the moment.  I am tired of living in a society focused on narrow measures of beauty and success.  None of them apply to me.  They never have and they never will.  Where does that leave me?  I don’t exactly know.

I know that I need to create my own path.  Unfortunately, that is precisely what intimidates some people, even though that is the only option I’ve ever been given.  Then again, why should I care?  The people who understand are the only people who matter.

2 thoughts on “The High Cost of (Not) Being Yourself – Part 1

  1. UltravioletCollision

    I’ve felt this way far too many times myself and it’s only recently I’ve allowed myself to actually take my own path. It was horrifically intimidating at first and I definitely thought it would segregate even further from the world but I’ve actually found my world open up so much more.I guess when those of us who are meant to take their own path actually do, we find a lot more people like us. All the luck and love. x



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