If you haven’t checked out Bring Pretty Back yet, you need to do so now. Kristen is such a positive person, and her message of encouragement for all women is what we all need. You can find episodes of Pretty Coffee with Kristen here.
The reason I wanted to talk about Bring Pretty Back today is because I can relate. I know exactly what it feels like to feel ugly and to lose self-confidence. I’ve struggled with self-confidence my entire life. I have never felt beautiful or felt that society has ever accepted the way that I look. When Kristen talks about feeling pretty, I understand what she is trying to say, but I can’t help wondering when I ever felt beautiful. I would love to provide an example, but I truly can’t think of one.
My entire life I’ve found it difficult to find clothes that fit correctly thanks to my short stature and my Turners body. There is a reason why women with Turner Syndrome joke about starting their own clothing lines. The fact that women with bodies like mine are not normally represented anywhere in popular culture just adds to the feeling that my body is and always will be “wrong.”
I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life, but even when I was within 15 lbs. of what I “should” weigh, I still felt fat and ugly. Looking back at that time, I was pretty, or at least cute. Even then, I couldn’t enjoy it because all I could still see were my imperfections. With those imperfections, according to popular culture and my childhood peers, I was unworthy of notice.